Book 30, Chapter 3 Opened

Oh, God, it’s my birthday! I’m super excited to witness yet another beautiful year. This surely marks the beginning of stunning experiences, life-transforming challenges, epic moments, and cherished memories.

I feel blessed to have been born in the first month of the year. Although, where I come from, January isn’t considered an ideal month for many. For me, however, it’s a special time – the moment God chose for me to join His earthly creation. So, I’m going to make the most of it!

Instead of sharing a Happy New Year post earlier, I decided to save it for this special day. Nonetheless, I’d like to extend my warmest compliments of the new season, 2025! May all your heart’s desires be fulfilled in this beautiful year.

To truly experience the newness this year has to offer, make a conscious decision to do something differently. An increment in age is a poignant reminder that time is passing. As I grow older, I recognize the need for change.

The adulting journey is becoming more real, and I’m embracing it with each passing moment. This new year brings new opportunities, and I’m committed to making it worthwhile. I’ll take each goal I’ve set seriously, refusing to remain stagnant.

I’m eager to witness positive changes in all aspects of my life. Bring it on, 2025! I’m ready. Watch this space❣️❣️❣️

I am rising above

She is rising above…

I am back again after a long time 🤦🏾‍♀️. Consistency is still a huge challenge to me but well since it’s a new year am set for a mindset shift hence AM RISING ABOVE this obstacle and many others. Writing a new year post has been my thing since I started this blog so yipeee some consistent element is still within me; it simply needs more cultivation and am on it. I truly want to improve on this one.

This reminder pops up every Tuesday morning and stays with me all day long…

Eversince I promised to keep this place well fed, I tried to keep up for a couple of weeks and even set a reminder on my phone but well life’s happenings got the best of me as usual 🤦🏾‍♀️. If I say I wasn’t writing, I would be lying; I wrote a number of stories but just lost the motivation and strength to click the publish button. One of my excuses has been, “Oh, I am supposed to share something on my blog but I do not have time to download some graphics to add on to the story…” Yea, I made a conscious decision to keep the blog colourful and posting a story nje creeps the hell out of me… The excuse is good enough, huh?

I no longer have no writing excuse, whatsoever!

So, the point is whenever we don’t live up to our expectations, we always come up with excuses. I expect to find myself writing frequently with no excuse whatsoever but because I am human, I still have a reason why I haven’t been able to do so. Genuine or not, I know better but we do this in many things in our lives so, in this new season, I just wanna rise above any excuses. I wanna do what I am supposed to do or that which I set my mind to do effectively and consistently.

Just don’t give up on yourself!

2023 has been such a challenging year for me as I have been trying to get back on my feet for I fall to rise again. I am grateful that nomatter how difficult it has been, I managed to see 2024 which is a season I am so hopeful that it is going to be a lot more better. They say talk is cheap so, in this season I pray that I may be a person of a few words and more action-oriented.

I am rising above all negative vibes…

I choose to rise above all obstacles that have hindered my progress. And this is my prayer for YOU, yes you who is reading this blog, may you rise above all your challenges, you know them, list them down and tell them one by one that you are rising above❣️

Say with me, “I AM RISING ABOVE!!!”

23 August 2023, Zimbabwe

On my last blog I promised to work on my consistency and am glad here I am today publishing something 😊. I feel so proud of myself ☺️… Anyway let me get to today’s business where am going to be talking about 23 August 2023 in Zimbabwe. I feel like a journalist 😂 reporting some current affairs.

Anyway so, you might be wondering what’s happening on this specific day especially if you ain’t a Zimbo 🤔. Well, we are going to be voting for the President who will lead us for the next 5 years. Election time usually come with a lot of instability socially and economically so we just keep on praying for peace and more peace.

I hope we have registered to vote in numbers because each and every vote matters and counts. I also hope whoever and whichever party is going to win has people at heart. Together we can make this land a better space.

Before I sign out let me share a little bit of voting ettiquette;

  • You are not to go to the polling station in your favourite party’s regalia; your vote is your secret.
  • You must not have cutex or artificial nails on the pinky finger that you dip in the ink
  • Arrive early at the polling station
  • Go home and rest after casting your vote; avoid unnecessary gatherings.
  • Above all mantain the peace, it begins with you.

Let’s go and choose our favourite candidates and once again may they keep our interests at heart 😊.

Mental Health Matters: triggered by HOZ Episode

I had a busy day trying to balance books for my new retailing business. August has been a trial run to check if it’s feasible and it has proved to be lucrative. It is said that opportunity meets preparedness, am glad that I took time to plan and get ready for this endeavour. I am forever grateful for every person who has supported me and trusted me with their needs. God bless you all.

Imagine!

After such a long day, all you gotta do is rest but it’s one of those days when insomnia is saying let’s stay together mami. I had a little squabble with a friend and I could sense myself losing it. At least I managed to cut the call and texted him a few reminders on our boundaries. I then had another healthier call with another friend who inspires me a lot. A few minutes chatting with him gets me rejuvenated. And yea I got my nerves on point once again.

Exactly!

To get some sleep, I decided to check on my favourite soapie, House of Zwide on some FB page. They usually post episodes in advance and some of us can binge watch 2 or 3 episodes at once. I don’t know if its not copyright infringement but well am just a viewer. If its any harm, askies, to the HOZ team. I do this in good faith, since the storyline is so captivating that I wish it was a novel, I could have finished reading it by now. Talking of faith, am really worried about Faith Zwide. Her mental breakdown triggered some memories. It helped me see the gap of our understanding in mental health matters as Africans. I got to question myself that are ghosts really there or its her guilty conscience playing bananas with her. Being black am thinking her issue needs exorcism but now a little enlightened on mental health, I feel some professional medical attention can set her free.

Simply, my favourite so far.

Its sad that Funani and Nkosi actually believe that she is faking it. They don’t know uBusi won’t rest until she takes Faith’s soul too. Why is she haunting her now though after 20 years of Ona not knowing her true identity? This then makes me believe that, her mind is now conscious that she is getting down. Because she is overwhelmed and under so much stress, the mind can no longer take it in hence the hallucinations. Mental health conditions are the worst so far because not many understand them.

Before the mental breakdown…

Many are ashamed to talk about them or even just acknowledging they are not okay. I always say this, its okay not to be okay cos I too got not-okay-moments at times. It sucks not being yourself, dealing with demons that only you can see. Good thing is nothing ever stays the same. Whenever it gets dark and cloudy, rains are closer. It might pour on you but be rest assured, the rainbow will cover the sky and calm the raging storm. The sun will shine again and all will be well. Uzoba strong Ms Faith, you haven’t been my favourite character but on this one am with you.

Hugs and kisses to you

Knowing yourself

Oops, I have archived some of my content because there are some characters I had written about without their consent. As a writer, there are some ethics and code of conduct to be followed regardless the fact that it is a free will. They asked and I listened so, beloved readers stay here and you will feel the stories in the near future when they allow me to share. I know one day, they will allow me to publish and share with you all. Of course, I don’t live for people but I live around people so, if my actions are going to break a soul then I need to think if it is really worth it. Grateful, I still have a conscience.

There is an interesting subject that has given me sleepless nights. I keep holding myself back and telling myself am not qualified enough to talk about it. But well, the inner voice kept nudging me to grab a pen and write that which I understand from experience, research and testimonials from other people. The moment I heed to this call, I discovered that I actually understand a little much more than I thought. So, we are talking about knowing you. How much do you know yourself?

When I was trying to figure out how to answer this question, Google directed me to the Johari Window which is a tool that was invented by two Psychologists, Joseph Luft and Harry Ingham in 1955. This is a self-awareness tool which helps one to understand themselves and the necessary human interaction that results from knowing who we are. As I observed this four panelled window, I realised they are things which we know and do not know about ourselves yet others do.

The Johari Window


In simple terms this tool explains 3 things:
❤️How much you know yourself
❤️How much you share about yourself with others
❤️How much others know you
If you are more self-aware, the windows to the left tend to be wider, than those to the right. This is because when you understand something, you would want to share with others. Tabitha is inquisitive, that’s one thing she understands so well about herself. So, whenever she is around people, she tends to be asking a lot of questions hence people around her know well about this trait in her. If you are less self-aware, the windows to the right tend to be wider. This is because people tend to come up with narratives of who they think you are. For the greater part of my childhood I have been a very quiet person which at most has been mistaken for foolishness. People labelled what they felt they understood about me and somehow I was forced to believe it because by then I didn’t understand myself.


It has taken me many years to get to understand myself and as I write I am still learning more about me. So, it’s never too late to tap into self-awareness. There is so much in ourselves that when you get to understand it all, you will understand what the Holy Book meant when it said we are mini gods. Just give yourself sometime to figure out who you are and enjoy the benefits of being human.

Till we meet next time, just take time to dig deeper into yourself!

Dreadlocked not Rastafarian

After I got pregnant in June 2018, my life changed drastically. I went through a lot of trauma at times I would wish the angel of death would visit me and put an end to my miserable life. Alas, it was never to be, God was indeed polishing me up to be the strong and courageous woman I am today. Baby daddy rejected me the moment I announced the news of the baby to him, he told me clearly that he neither wanted me nor the baby. The only solution he offered to me was abort but well, I chose not to. With or without him, I vowed to take care of my baby but it hasn’t been any easy journey. Good thing is, it is getting easier with time.

As I went through this hurdle, I thought of doing something different with myself, so I chose having dreadlocks 😊. On the 31st of December 2018, I went to get the wax locks and I promised myself to let them grow and never cut them before the time I set to cut them. Before the locks, mood changes would get me changing hairstyles but this time, I promised myself to see my hair grow without limiting it. It indeed is pure bliss watching the locks get longer and longer. Each stage gets me stronger and gives me a sense of fulfilment. I always tell my friends that I wanna cut them at 40, God willing, yea I wanna go bald at 40 😂.

There are times I feel terribly down and think of cutting the locks but I then think of why I had them in the first place and all I can do is put those thoughts at the back of my mind. I love my dreadlocks so much, they are one of the best things in my life. Being dreadlocked makes you a friend to allbody but well, I don’t like it when they all feel entitled to call me Rasta. One of these days I’m just going to print T-shirts emblazoned, “I got dreadlocks not rasta🤣”. I am no Rastafarian, I love my meat like crazy and there is no spiritual thing whatsoever about my locks, it’s just a hairstyle that I chose as therapy for the trauma I faced on my journey of carrying an unplanned pregnancy. Much love to my daughter, Penda, she indeed is my all.

Poverty versus the pandemic

I woke up to find water coming out of the taps after almost a week of a dry spell. With these 30 days of lockdown, you wonder if we can totally stay at home 🤔🤦🏾‍♀️, because its either you are by the shops queing for grocery supplements or by the borehole topping up your water reserves. Mantaining the Covid regulations still seem like a fallacy to an average Zimbabwean.

So, as I was fetching water, a childhood memory struck me 😊. It was year end in 1999 and I was seven by then. My older siblings, Tari and Tina were having a conversation on the year to come. I listened attentively as they narrated about something called the millenium bug which was meant to come and destroy the world at the beginning of the year 2000. Tina expressed it in as much scary manner as possible for a 7-year old imagination. Being the cry baby I was, I started crying because I was super scared of dying at such a tender age. I remember vividly both of them laughing hillariously at me but it was such a devastating moment on my end.

Following the news on Coronavirus on various social media platforms, I sense the millenium bug moments in most people’s lives. The only difference now is Covid is real and people are dying daily from it. Its so heart-rending 😔. In a country like this we only hope and pray that it spares us because staying indoors seem pretty difficult. We are trying to balance between not dying from poverty and not dying from the virus. Most families survive from hand to mouth so the math seem a lot more difficult to balance. Lord have mercy on us. Amen.

Yesterday I had a conversation with a good friend of mine, Kue, she was telling me she needs to stay at home as much as possible because she has 2 or 3 relatives who have succumbed to this new strain of Covid. May their souls rest in eternal peace. This was amidst some business conversation were I needed her availability. I calmly told her, “its okay, lemme take the risk.” She lovingly tried to convince me to stay put but I responded, “what if I dont die?” Get me right, I am not reckless about my life, I wanna live and see my Penda age, God willingly. Each time I decide to go out, it has to be for a genuine cause and I make sure I mask up, sanitise all the way through and mantain social distance as much as possible though this is pretty hard in my motherland.

I am trying to strike a balance between poverty and this pandemic. I have a daughter to raise so I made Kue understand how much that call from Gran ma depresses me when she gets to notify that Penda’s supplies are running out. The feeling somehow equals the Covid pain 🤦🏾‍♀️, it suffocates me. To ease the pain, I am holding on to my faith and keep on praying for the best. I might already have the virus in my system thus still holding on to the statistics that of the 100% infected, 80% will show mild symptoms and heal without much serious attention, 15% will get hospitalized and 5% will die. I still stand to be corrected if am wrong, dear readers. The statistics might have changed without me knowing 😉.

One thing for certain, these coronavirus strains are not going to end now but will surely come to pass some day. We gotta brace up for this new normal and work on our adaptability mechanisms. I choose not to live in fear, I just wanna make the most of my life in the safest manner possible. Around social media there is a lot of conspiracy theories on this pandemic so I have chosen not to take in eveything that comes my way. Usually I question credibility because I do not want to live in fear of what I dont understand. I keep on raising my faith so high and pray that this comes to pass earlier than we can ever imagine.

Lets keep on staying safe, we have survived the Covid 19 and am hearing we now have the Covid 21, may it spare us too.

A year more added to me

The story of my life began 29 years ago, this one successful sperm made it on the race to fuse with one special ovum. It took my mum 8 months to deliver me into this world, a pre-term I was. In our Shona culture they said, 8-month pre-terms had low survival chances compared to other pre-terms born earlier. This is still a mystery, I havent understood but well I am a living testimony. If it was so true that my survival chances were slim, I became a survivor since day one. Indeed God knew me before He formed me in my mum’s womb.

For these and many other blessings I thank
you Lord…

Today marks my 29th chapter, the ending to my 20’s series. It just calls for more wine 🥂😂. I woke up to reflect on how my 20’s have been like. Well these have been crazier than my teens 😂. I grew older, had bigger challenges, made many more mistakes, fell so many times but here I am today rejoicing in it all. All the happenings sharpened me to the super woman I am today. I took lessons from every mistake I made, I rose when I fell, I allowed pain to take its course for out of it I have brought forth fruit, every challenge made me stronger. My faith has helped me, conquer it all for in God I trust.

My Chapter 29 theme

This 29th chapter, I just wanna make it so special by letting the fruits of the Holy Spirit (Gal 5.22-23) take lead. Love, Joy, Peace, Forgiveness, Patience, Kindness, Goodness, Gentleness and Self Control is all I shall be exuding from now on. I have surrendered my all unto the Most High God, let Him do what only He can do with my life…

🥂To more life.
🥂 To more success.
🥂 To more wine.

Hello 2021

Complements of the New Season to you all. It feels so good to have come to yet another year. Last night I took a moment of silence and lit a candle in rememberance of all those who couldnt make it to this day due to the deadly pandemic Coronavirus and all my friends and family who succumbed to the call of death, may their dear souls rest in eternal peace. Count your blessings, you can still read this and you been granted another year to shine…

Anyway, its a Friday as usual 😊, I just remembered nothing much changes as I was woken up by the “Cobra man” at 0700hrs as he made his daily routine of selling floor polish in the neighbourhood. He passionately shouts, “Cobra, $1 for 2”, with such a loud voice that wakes you up even from the deepest sleep 😂.

For most of us, January the first is a holiday, we just want to rest but there are some who just take it as another day from the previous one. Nothing changes, yes but its only the last digit from the previous year that has changed. It is upto us to make that change, to say in 2020, I was doing this, this way but 2021, I want to make a difference and do it that way. Change begins with you and a new year marks our aging, we are getting older and older by each passing second.

With lessons from 2020, lets make our 2021 more beautiful by setting SMART goals and focusing on changing in those areas that we have control over. We all have the same 365 days so its upto you to make them worthwhile or waste them away. You only have one life here on earth, so make your days awesome by doing good and right at all cost, there is no substitute for goodness.

A positive mind is one tool that will take you far so let go all negative energy and enjoy your 365 days. I love you all.

Goodbye 2020

We have come to the year end and yea 2020 has been one of a kind. The corona pandemic hit us unexpectedly, we just didnt know the whole year would end with us in facemasks. It honestly doesnt feel like New Year’s Eve with us in our homes. They say the numbers of those getting affected with the pandemic are sky rocketing so lock down measures have been implemented again. We just pray that this monster vanishes and make our 2021 better because tabhoo.

Nonetheless it hasnt been totally a bad year for me. I learnt a lot from all the happenings and developed myself. For years I didnt know myself as much as I do now. The times I have spent alone have made me reflect and introspect which has helped me spread my wings. I have been able to fly higher than ever before and am so grateful for that.

As I end this year, I wanna thank everyone who has been part of my 2020 story. Some left me and some are still by my side, I appreciate them all. We might have not made it to the end together because of our differences but that hasnt stopped me from loving all of you. Am moving into 2021 with no hatred nor bitterness. The fruits of the Holy Spirit shall be my daily bread in 2021.

I wanna call it Twenty Plenty Wine coz wine signifies maturity as it matures with age. So, there shall be maturity in every aspect of my life in 2021. It also signifies miracles since Jesus’ first miracle at the wedding of Cana was changing water into wine. Yea, I foresee a lot of miracles in my 2021. Finally it signifies victory as we drink wine in celebration. There shall be plenty of victories in my 2021 so yea I shall be trending with #maturity #miracles #victory #20plentywine 😂.

Goody bye 20plenty, welcome 20plentywine.