She has a voice, let her roar!

Celebrate the woman you are everyday!

Muted
She can’t let out a sound
Suppressed
Her voice can’t be heard
Victimised
She cries to be freed

Her cries get louder
They turn to a roar
She roars
They get shocked
She has a voice, let her roar!

She is every woman
A mother for her children
A wife to her husband
An executive in the boardroom
A slut in her sanctified bedroom
A colleague in the workplace
A friend to embrace
An aunt to confide in
A sister to cherish

Never underestimate her power
She can bring forth fruit
Nurture and nourish it
She is gifted in multiplication
All she touches gets plenty
She has a voice, let her roar!
That’s the only way to see her capacity

This piece was first published in the She Roars Newsletter Volume 1 2019

Let’s meet in celebration of womanhood!

Insecure

Insecurities made by one’s promiscuity
I couldn’t let go, consumed all the toxicity
And they now suffocate
My innocent soul
I lost trust in all masculinity
Each time history acts like its playing repeat
I cower into my shell
Each missed call on a Friday night
Gets me into a relapse of the trauma once caused
By being with a cheat
I lost trust in that gender
They say it is earned
But how do I express my fears without showing the insecurities?
I wanna be the perfect girl
Who shines through it all
But the anxiety of what he is doing when he is MIA drains me
“Heal first.”
They tell me
Each time I make that move to be with the next one
Deep inside I feel I have healed
But scars always remain
And its like the wounds never heal
As each time he blue ticks my Whatsapp messages
I turn red with rage
I want him to know my fragility
But I have been taught to be strong
Big girls don’t cry, I remind myself
Maybe he is just too busy
And well, he is not that one
I lost trust in the one I wanna have children with
Should I keep holding on?
Giving him the benefit of doubt?
Maybe he aint what I met in my past
And his reasons for being MIA and the blue ticks are genuine
He apologies when I open my mouth to complain
Wait…. isn’t what that one would do?
Impatience doesn’t exist in my vocabulary
I take my time in taking in all the shenanigans
The scars aren’t healing coz the wounds got deeper
I moved on because I vowed never to loose hope in love
But the insecurities forever linger
I wish he knew how dark my past has been
So that he wont bring the memories back again
πŸ’”

TalesOfTabitha

_tellAtale_

12.06.2022: 2221hrs

Letter to My Self

Dear Self

I am super sorry for the times I forgot your worth πŸ˜”.

For the times I settled for less because ndozviripo.

For the times my irrational decisions hurt you.

For the times I took in toxins and nearly killed you.

For the times I sought for validation in other selves and forgot to consult you.

For the times I forgot to acknowledge your beauty, bravery and awesomeness.

You are an amazing being and I love you so much.

Once again am sorry, I will definitely treat you better than before.

Love Me

All I need.

My dilemma

In his handwriting
Lies can be detected
He writes them so amicably
“Babe, I have a breakdown so coming home a bit late”
Heaven knows the breakdown is right in front of Maria’s homestead
And he is busy looking for the tools box right under her blankets πŸ€¦πŸΎβ€β™€οΈ
Both naked and sweating profusely
The search for the tools is that much of an activity
Once satiated, just after midnight
He knocks at the door
Finally, he is home
I been praying that he is safe and arrives on time
Waiting for him to offer me those conjugal rights
Well, his first statement makes me furious,
“Oh babe, I need to change this car, its now a pain. Imagine a whole night trying to fix it by the roadside.”
He doesnt even look the part
Instead of some black grease stains on his clothes
He has some brownish and reddish stains
I look at him from head to toe
And feel nauseated
He is as disgusting as his lies
The sexual hunger disappears
Anyway its not like Maria has left anything for me πŸ€¦πŸΎβ€β™€οΈ
I have had such moments before
It hurts when you get to beg for it
And someone gives excuses
I just tell him where his food is and head back to curl under my blankies
He notices, I picked his lies
But well he is now used to the attitude so he just murmurs under his breathe,
“Thanks mai mwana”
In a tone that shows, he is not even going to look at the food
Maria has quenched all his thirst
He joins me in bed
And all I smell is that feminine scent
Hell no, the night will be a little longer
I curl myself at the far edge of the bed
He cares not, in a few seconds I hear him snore like a pig
I toss and turn
Till the cock crows
Its a new day
I wake up to serve him
Waiting on the next chapter of his shenanigans
Thank God, my mama taught me well
Never to fight him
But well the social media streets are teaching me otherwise
And am getting fed up by each second
Its only one day
I will burst because I have bottled up a lot
So, help me Lord

It must come to an end!

I had a future that I dreamt of
Like any other girl,
Never did I only want to be a wife and a mother,
But because of some church doctrine,
At 14 they gave me to a man as the 4th wife
Young I was, but that they never saw
Just because nature showed I was ready to conceive,
They termed me mature,
I became his fresh feast,
He devoured all my innocence,
Took away my pride,
Nine months, I carried the bulging belly,
Till the day to deliver my bundle of joy,
Did I know how to nurse a child?
I still needed to be nursed too,
Well, the future was yet to teach me that,
But I lost it, before I got there,
Labour pangs hit me so hard,
At least I needed some proper health care,
But they took me to the shrine,
Where the midwives gambled with my life,
Oxytocin played its role
At the same time they were rubbing my throat with salt and vinegar
Whilst pouring paraffin in my nose,
It was too much for my little soul,
I failed to take it in,
The angel of death took heed to my call,
I gave up, leaving my son,
Thank Heavens it was a son,
He will not go through what I went through,
I pray he will be the reason
This girl child abuse comes to an end,
My soul wails for change,
No girl deserves to go through this,
Together we can make a difference
For a better future.

JusticeforMemo

Childmarriagesmustfall

Hakuna mwana mai asiri mahumbwe